Hey you I might not be the one for you
But I’m stuck here feeling stupid
I don’t know what to do
I don’t want things to end this way
Conversations ending with nothing much to say
Stuck wondering if you still feel the same way
I guess Im scared of losing you
Like everyone I come to know and knew
I guess you tried your best and I do to
If this doesn’t work out you deserve better and I do too
I guess you’re going to leave it this way between me and you

And that’s okay
If you genuinely feel that way
We had great memories didn’t we?
Bliss, Happiness, Timed Flowed Endlessly

I guess I was stuck in Cloud 9
And maybe I’ll start singing “She was Mine”
I don’t know how we became so distant
And I still believe that love has no distance

So as I sit here with a  stupid smile on my face
Still feeling hurt, still stuck in your grace
If you give up I guess I’ll do the same

And if this is the end I just want to say thank you
Everyone deserves to be happy
Even if its not between me and you

But at this very moment I wish my life ended with us together; me + you

Hello Im a drug addict
Please dont judge me
You must think Im crazy
or really really stupid
for doing something I shouldnt
but you dont know the rush I gain
by injecting this syringe into my vains
Yeah my life gets a little unstable but who doesnt
My uncontrollable emotions
Its not the drugs I swear it
This drug helps me
I think it cures me
Its a roller-coaster drug
It has its ups. It has its downs
~I’m free~
~I could do anything~
~Depression Depression~
~Cut Slash Cut~
~ I HATE me~
This drug.. It takes me out of this robotic strife
Because what inject in to my veins
Its.. Called Life

A girl asked me
“What kind of girls do I like”
So Thought I wanted to stand out and give her a good answer
Even if its a simple question
So I said to her
I like the ones that make you smile every day type of girl
A smart in the head but will love you in bed type of girl
the you never run out of things to talk about type of girl
Not an ordinary type of girl
She stands out to me type of girl
With her beauty type of girl
The Im in love im crazy type of girl
The passionite type of girl
With a strong smile type of girl
With a strong look  called love in her eyes type of girl
A mutual feeling type of girl
Youre not scared to do anything since she isnt type of girl
butterflies in my stomach type of girl
as long as youre happy im happy type of girl
I wish I had more time to spend with this type of girl
The body soul and mind type of girl
lemon to my lime type of girl
hug me tight and dont let go type of girl
Someone that isnt worried about being mean type of girl
Because she knows that you ll never think shes mean type of girl
A Takes away your what ifs with loads of affection type of girl
Plays video games with me type of girl
The ones that make you stutter type of girl
With the “… I like her a lot… I mean hella..” Type of girl
Someone who goes on the phone with me and talk till infinity type of girl
Someone who knows she isnt going to lose me type of girl
Because she knows that shes the only girl in my world

Once upon a time I was interesting book
There was this girl who liked my story
I was a lonely book so this girl surprised me
She took me out of the bookshelf and began to read my heart
She fell in love with the beginning

It went like
“Once upon a time there was a tree
This tree wasn’t ordinary
It could preform magic
Magic as in love
And under this tree
Was a lost boy and a sad girl
They both didn’t believe in love
But Under this tree magic happened
The boy found himself through the girl
And the girl found  happiness through the boy
It was perfect, how two people fell in love just like that…”

I gave her butterflies through my words and she couldn’t put me down
She rushed through my pages, lost in the happy story
Of a guy and girl just falling in love
But my story didn’t end that way
In the middle of my chapters the happiness started to disintegrate

“…. It became difficult over the 1st argument
But the boy wasn’t hurt since he didn’t mind the arguments
Apart of him liked it because he knew
That through the arguments true love will seep through…
… The girl was dumbstruck “why where they arguing”
She thought it was pointless to fight and bicker
So whenever they argued she refused….
….They boy was saddened that the girl he loves couldn’t speak.
Her silence pierced his heart slowly.
he believed that they could talk about everything why not this?….”

This became the downfall of there love
Mis-communication at it’s finest
Love was lost through the confinement
The relationship didn’t end quite yet
They both ignored the arguements as the story went on

“… The boy took the girl to a movie
It was a movie about love not a love story
It was a beautiful movie but it scared the guy
He wondered what type of guy he was
The one who stays in her life or the one who leaves
He was so sure of himself that he wouldn’t leave her life….
… As school started the girl and boy parted
It became too difficult for them both
As the girl started becoming busy
The guy became more lonely
No one is to be blamed because that’s just life
The guy become distraught, and heartbroken.
The girl focused on school.
The guy thought long and hard about breaking up.
The girl didn’t speak anymore
The guy didn’t know what else to do
And that’s how the cookie crumbled…”

The girl loved the book and it’s story
But like all books she read she became bored with it eventually.
My words no longer touched her
My words began to lose there meaning.
I became an old good book.

Once upon A time there was this boy
This boy wasn’t any ordinary boy
He was a loser, scared, quirky, broken , but he had a big heart
That big heart made him unique, special at the least

You see this little boy always had big dreams, selfish big dreams
He wanted to be a lot of things.
He wanted to be the best at video games
He wanted to be that guy who made people laugh
He wanted to be the guy that everyone likes
but most importantly
He always had this dream
Ever since he was a little kid
That he was going to be the best boyfriend in the world
Sounds stupid right?
As a kid he always saw people going out,
As time grew, he saw people break up and grow apart.
He saw boyfriends cheat, lie and call there girlfriends bitches
Instead of being nice, making them smile, and blowing them kisses
This guy would think before he sleeps
That the girl he meets, would be extremely lucky to date a guy like me
I’m not cute but im not ugly, and I have a great personality
I bet girls would love to go out with me
He was so confident of himself that he was sure that
His first girlfriend would be his last
As time passed and time went on,
He came to realize that he was the only person who thought this
That girls won’t even notice guys like him
This shot his selfesteem, he thought ” who would go out with a guy like me”?
Maybe it’s ‘cos Im ugly, maybe I have a bad personality
Maybe thats why girls won’t notice me
You never guess how badly he felt alone and bitter
To him teenaged years were the coldest winter
I’m Down in the dumps and out of luck
Is what he said when his life starts to suck
But this boy did meet a great girl
But he wasnt the best boyfriend in the world
Nor the cutest and not the last
Sadly he’ll be just another guy in her past
Depression is what hits him
Randomly through the day
But this kid still has the nerve to say
Fuck the past, todays today,
Watch world, Ill be the greatest boyfriend one day
A girl will love me for me, and I will do the same
And we will be fucking losers and spend the day playing video games
And I will be her super hero
My power is to make her smile
Forever not just a while
The next girl will be his last
and fuck that, he wont just be another guy in her past
He’ll pull all the stops to make this relationship last
‘Cos hes the best boyfriend in the world, A boys selfish Dream.

Let me break this down
To make you smile instead of frown
Ladies you should go out with a “Nerd”
Che Che CHECK THE WORD
I may not have a six pack
But I got what other guys lack
Sweet witty word play
Just to see you smile, Just to make your day
I’ll be like “Out of all the pokemon in the world
I wanted to choose you so why dont you be my girl”?
I could make you smile, I could make you laugh
While we cuddle by the fire, playing starcraft
You don’t know how much you mean to me
I’ll love you everyday while we play Halo 3
I do little things to make you smile to make your day
And when we get bored we can spice things up and Cosplay
I could be Batman the knight of the dark
and you can be Robin, stealing my heart
You can be my Woman of Wonder
We can fly sky high or go down under
For a girl like you to go out with a guy like me
Baby thats my only Final Fantasy
Spending a day with you playing Mario Kart
then getting lost in your love in a Kingdom of Hearts
Our feelings for each other will get bigger and bigger
loaded the gun with love and pulled the Chrono Trigger
Our love is like Mario and Peach its infectious
And our hands fit perfectly together like the hardest puzzles in Tetris
I can tutor you in math baby cant you see
That I’ll love you everyday less than three <3
So ladies “Che che CHECK THE WORD”
Make a guy happy and go out with a NERD

Somebody please play me a love song
Till this day I cant accept that the fact that my girl is gone.
I used to go out with this girl
She used to be my one and only my world
I remember the times where we used to look in to each others eyes, and hearts are beating fast and we hold hands
While we’re swaying back and forth listining to the most beautiful love jams 
Since every love song reminds me of you and I cant help but reminisce
So for every Love SONG song that exists I’ll list
Let me break it down like this
If I had one wish I would still be with the girl I miss
I would have you to myself, Baby Im Selfish
When your not here, Im Lost without you
I know we haven’t seen each other in a while, But you will always be My boo
We’re meant to be together, Like ash and pikachu
I can’t take my eyes off of you Your just too good to be true, 
now all Im hearing is raindrops, Im officially missing you
Your my sunset, Ill always be the man that you can run too
Cos we give each other a lil bit of R.E.S.P.E.C.T and a L.O.V.E
So can overcome any dark times There is a light that shines for you and me
Without you in my world, girl its killing me softly
One time One time I’m a tell you one time
How this lady so divine is always on my mind
Because you quench my thirst like a tall glass of lemonade
My passion is to cater to you, my girl I’ll serenade
We could do a little bit of PDA I want to kiss you underneath the stars
And Ill build our rocket ship, whereever you are
and When you walk away you dont hear me say, please oh baby dont go
Cos we’re ordinary people, we should take it slow
But I could go fast lady, I just have to switch up the flow
My love is going to take you down and here we are all alone in this room
My heart is ski ski skippin like Boom Boom 
Youre were my sunshine in a cloudy day
But now your  MY ex GIRL, Forever you didnt here to stay
Somewhere FAR over the rainbow, is a girl I used to adore
A lady beyond beauty, My ex cherrie amour
It hurts my heart to know that We’ve Grown Apart
Till this day I cant accept that the fact that your gone
So to compensate, Somebody please play me a love song

Authors note: Everything that’s bolded is infact a love song or contains the lyrics. For those who didnt get the one time thing, Go listen to Killing Me Softly. I tried to mesh that part with Justin Beibers song “One Time”

Okay I tried writing a poem again. I don’t know why. Its based on what I think certain girls are like. I dunno what I was going with this. Let me tell you my poems are never finished. Whenever I look at them again I feel like adding a new verse so they always change. All my performances change until I deem it perfect or too long. Haha the girls I’m talking about are the ones guys like me seem like they have no chance with. The ones that have a great mind soul and body but thats not the reason why we like them. They reach a place untouchable that guys like me can only dream for them to like. Aha But like they say, even if it seems like we are meant to be together forever, if you or I don’t want to take the chance it will never happen. We will fall in love with other people. Life goes on

Let me tell you about this girl I used to like
What she was was to me was untouchable.
Strong, she was by herself no one to learn on.
Yet elegant, delicate, more beautiful than the sky’s dawn
A girl more divine than imagination its self
But she gets lost in thought, confidence lost, no worth in self
A queen in image, she can make a simpleton stumble
As they bask in her presence, hearts she crumples
She got more hype than the beasts in the jungle
Style, swagger, hype, she got it
Guys, Boys, Men they want it
So scared of this feeling of love she puts herself above it
Untouchable, is what shes rocking, her pretty new fit
But dam god she ain’t as untouchable as she puts herself out to be
She just wants someone to break down her walls and tell her what love is supposed to be
Like, this image of falling with the right guy, but they have to look the image and play it right
Cos dam she ain’t falling for no ordinary guy, you out of your mind
Trust her feelings? Maybe she’ll do it today
Fall in love? Its whatever is the new saying 
Untouchable? No she ain’t, you just have to look past the facade 

This poem was just itching to come out of me today. I just wanted to be alone to write it. I know it might not be good but enjoy. Its short! and I said I would write a poem for ricca but sadly I cant write one about her since I really don’t know her that well. So I wrote about what I felt today and the words just came to me. I will write you one about you once we kick it more and I have things to say:D
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A new story, Let me change it up 
Cute girl, nice butt, smooth thighs C-Cup
Such a nice smile, with the look of love that would put a guy in denial
Too much power in her hands, how she can control a simple man
Make him confused to question his heart
Make him pause for a second and ask himself when did all of this start
From a kiss? From a wish? To make sure that her happiness exist
A mixtape called “There History” in time, let it rewind
When it was straight shits and giggles, laugh and tickles
He can remember the first time he looked into her soul and the story it told
Im strong, I dont need your help. I dont need anyone. Then two words came Hold me.
So he did and he did for a while
A girl so cute, with such a nice smile.
With the look of love that would put a guy in denial
So this is a new story let me change it up
Cute story, Nice butt, smooth theighs, C-Cup
He remembers the times he would look up to the endless beautiful skies
Then look back into her and still see the clouds nine, heavens eyes.

Tiger (@rgascon) if you still want me to read this in person don’t read this poem yet

Let me take you back a year
and introduce to you one of my first fears
you see their was this girl I used to really really like
whenever I was with her it made my chest feel tight
A smile like the sun, 
It made me feel special because her heart I won
but then this story takes for the worse
I wasnt mentally prepared, there was no time to rehearse
I was caught in this negativity, this depression, this curse
I thought that relationships were for the worse
I thought I knew everything about them, I thought I could predict
What happens in a relationship, it made me sick
“First you meet and have a connection, then comes the shyness, the likes the infatuation”
then comes the cute stuff, the “will you go out with me’s”that bliss that came with every kiss, that feel good sensation
but then you get into your first fight, and things don’t end right
all that fighting and arguing late night starts to build that big fright
That fear of breaking up with the one you care about
Then comes those thoughts, those scary thoughts, with more and more doubts
Then.. then… you break up like what the fuck, I care about you so much please hear me out
But breaking up means breaking up in this stormy weather
And now your all bitter, sad, and depressed, 
Because you think you lost someone you really did care about and now your stressed
You dont want a repeat of the last relationship,
But. but thinking back at all the good times and memories you had 
Kind of makes you smile, it makes you feel glad
It feels as if even if you guys broke up, the good that happened in the relationship out weighted the bad
It was then that I found the true meaning of a relationship
It’s not about staying together and lasting forever
Its about spreading love joy and happiness into peoples hearts because those feelings are special, something to be treasured
So the next time you get into a relationship think like this
If we go out and we break up, we should spread our love with other people, go out with more people and teach them the meaning of happiness
But if we don’t break up and you stay, its okay to be selfish, I’ll be happy knowing that I’m the last guy on an angel’s love list