It seems like most girls these days would avoid getting hurt so they break off the relationship before they start to care. Is this what relationships teach you guys? To break away before you get attached so you can avoid getting hurt? That it always ends bad. That you cant cry because you wont dare to show how you really feel because it hurts too much? That you build walls and hide behind masks so that no one can see your weak side? That you tell yourself that you don’t need any guy in your life because your history tells you that there all dicks that want to fuck. That you dont trust anyone with your heart because in the end that they might break it? Thats why you guard it with all your might hoping that no one breaks it down because that person… the person who you let into your heart might leave your life and you dont know what you can do without them.  


In my attempt to understand is this true?

But hey shit happens. If a girl can convince me to get into a this weird fucked up ball of happiness called relationship, I’m all hers. <3

You cant tell whether they really the care or not. History tells me that they won’t  lie but the imagination in me wants to believe. 

What to do, what to do

You know what? I could play girls like its nothing if I really wanted to. It’s really not that hard. The only thing you need to be a player is charm, and honestly I think I got charm. If given the right moment, I could charm my way into a girls heart if I really wanted to. Call me cocky, I call it being clever and cute.

The “Chase” or “Talking” part in a relationship is prob the least interesting part in the relationship for me, because its easy. You dont lose anything if you stop talking because they dont mean anything to you. There is essentially no risk and less risk equals no fun. All you have to do is lie and say some cute things to make someone like you. I believe its meaningless to talk to someone unless you have the intention of going out. It’s way too easy. Its easy to resist looks but I heard you can never resist charm. I guess this is the player in me talking. 

The only thing thats holding me back from being a player are 2 things. I’m a good guy, and I fall in love.

For the fact that I’m a good guy, I can never hurt a girl purposely. Whenever I do something sweet for a girl, I really mean it. Whenever I say a girl is beautiful, I really do mean it. With every corny line I say to a girl, I put a lot of thought and creativity because her smile means a lot to me.  I try to put meaning into everything I do. I try to treat the girl I care about, like how shes supposed to to be treated. 

The other reason why I can’t be a player because I fall in love. I start to care a lot about the person. They start to more to me, because I put my soul into making that girl happy. I end up caring way to much  then I’m supposed and Its scary. Scary for the fact that they mean so much to me, I don’t know what I would do if something went wrong. Scary for the fact that they mean so much to me than a relationship. Scary for the fact the fact that I want them to be happy regardless of how I feel. 

So I guess I really can’t be a player.

A guy like me only likes a girl once in a blue moon, but when that girl comes I will try to make her feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I will try to be the best boyfriend and if the worst possible happens, the best ex boyfriend. I want her to believe that because of me and the way I treated her, that she could believe that relationships are the best thing ever regardless if we don’t go out.

And yeah, My Favorite part in a relationship is trying to stay together since its the hardest part in a relationship. I love a good challenge.  

I don’t want people kissing my ass telling me bullshit, and asking the obvious “Are you okay”. I don’t need pity. That only makes things worse. I say the best cure to sadness in my honest opinion is trying to understand what happened, and not giving advice, then when they feel a little bit better you honestly try to make someone happy. That feeling feels fucking great and its a perfect way to turn a frown upside down. And what I mean by honestly trying is reading a book out loud, singing me a song, or just a hug. It doesn’t matter what you do, but the effort put into it that makes me feel fucking good. 

Its the thought that counts. With the thought of someone caring, I cant help but crack a smile.

The risk factor, Getting nervous, heart beating fast, I love it all. I love choosing the difficult path, and I love wondering if I can actually do it. 

And if everything fails, it makes me want to take the challenge even more.

Maybe thats why I tend to not like girls who like me at first. Its too easy. I love it when girls dislike me at first. I love the girls with the complicated mind, because there hard to understand. So yeah, Dislike me all you want, dislike me all you want, you’ll learn to love me. And if you dont they hey, nothing I can do about that. :3

I don’t want to get into stupid petty arguments if I ever get another girlfriend. Even though  I’m saying this now, I might do it in the future. 

If their is anything I’m insecure about the most its that I’m scared that I might now be the right guy for the girl.  I know its stupid. If a girl really cares about me she wouldnt think that way but I’m negative.

Ever since I’ve watched 500 days of Summer I got this new insecurity. When I date a girl for some reason I think like this ” What type of guy am I going to be in her life? Am I going to be just another Tom?”

I always have this fear of being not good enough of a boyfriend. This is why I ever get a girlfriend I strive to be the best boyfriend she ever had. My biggest goal as a teenager is to make a girl really believe that I’m the best boyfriend she ever had. I want all my ex girlfriends to think I’m a wonderful guy even if we broke up.  

I want my style of love to be different than most guys. I don’t just want to sweet talk a girl into falling for me, I want her to believe in every sweet word I say to her because I really do mean it. To be honest I think If I really liked a girl I think I could get her to like me because my feelings are pretty honest and I’m creative but thats only if I really liked her :p. 

I guess apart of me does want a girlfriend but I doubt that I’ll get one. But if life proves me wrong then and I do get a girlfriend….. then… then I will make sure she wont regret going out with me <3 

People forget you don’t need money to be happy. You don’t need “stuff” to be happy. For some reason a lot of people want “stuff” but even if we get that stuff we still feel empty. Humans naturally feel empty so we have a drive to feel that emptiness. Some do it with fame. Some do it with money.

The smart people try to feel that “emptiness” with love or a relationship. 

Relationships end because someone still feels emptiness because of the fact that they weren’t truly in love

Relationships that are truly in love never feel empty. They keep chasing the love in one other because love lasts forever